Adult Decisions

So, here we are at the end of Grants first year of pharmacy school and wow time has passed so quickly! He has done so well and I am SO proud of him. I just hope the next 3 years go as smoothly. As he is wrapping up school I am packing up to head home for the summer. Last night as we were talking about being apart for the summer he said in a sad voice, "You know you're packing up for good right?". It made me want to cry, ok you know me; I did cry. The possibility is there. If I don't get a job here then I will have to stay at home and do what is necessary to be able to save for our future. Luckily I have been taught to have enough common sense to not be jaded and think that I can just come back here and do whatever. I have been at the cave long enough to make more money than I would here, plus now a days how can you give up a steady job for the unknown.

I am trying to stay positive and I am so thankful that we have been able to spend the last few months together in our "home". I am going to miss the little things. Like when we both brush our teeth how its hard not to laugh because he makes weird faces or when we are both cooking in the kitchen we run into each other a million times and still manage to laugh. I've learned so much like socks are left where they are shed and the shower curtain MUST be shut after exiting. As cliche as it sounds, I love him more every day. Oh, how do I know he loves me? Finally, after 3 1/2 years of begging, he finally uses the top sheet! Haha, I know it's silly, but it's the little things in life that make me happy.

Most of all, my very favorite thing that we have done together is get Emma. As silly as it sounds she is our child. She's smart and funny. Sweet and sassy. She plays fetch way better than either of my dogs and enjoys playing "golf" with Grant. She's as much my baby as a human baby. She cries at night, enjoys being held and loves me as much as I love her. Lord I'm going to miss my furry baby.

So, to the adult decisions... I cannot be naive and think that if I don't get a teaching position here that I can stay. I can be home working and saving for our future while he is finishing up here. I shouldn't make it such a big deal really. It's not like I will never come here or that something terrible is going to happen. We just need to stay positive and remember that we are both doing things to help our future!